The "Whys" and Why to Let Them Go

I, Erica Baker, am a planner; and I, Erica Baker, have a very hard time letting go of plans that fall apart.

I don’t think I could even count the hours I’ve spent muddling over the “what if’s” and the “why’s” and the “where did I go wrongs”. I am not a person who can just let my plans go. Even as they go up in flames in my hands you’ll see me holding on and getting scorched in the process. It may be a plan as simple as getting lunch with a friend that turns into a last minute cancel or the complete end of a relationship that was supposed to be forever. Plans gone awry throw me into a tizzy of anxiety and self doubt. Sadly, sometimes there is no real why or where I went wrong. You can do everything right and still fail because when a plan involves more than one person your 110% means nothing if they only give 2%. Wondering over and over again, “what if things had been different,” will not repair any broken plan because things just weren’t different.

One day they will be different though. Stop asking yourself “why” and start thinking “when”. When you, and I, get what we truly deserve and worked for. Create a plan for the when instead of recreating a plan to figure out the “why’s”, “what if’s”, and “where did I go wrong’s”. They don’t matter anymore, walk away to tend to your wounds and let the old plans go up in flames on their own.